So much has happened in the past six months! It's been absolutely nuts. Some of it has been really good; some of it has been ... well, not so really good. I've decided to make a timeline for myself to see just how much I've overcome.
March 14, 2009 -- I met Matt at a St. Patrick's Day party. Very good thing! :)
March 16, 2009 -- Travel to Nebraska for spring break and come home with a nasty case of tonsillitis.
March 21, 2009 -- Matt and I's first date. It went very well. :)
March 31, 2009 -- Happy Birthday to me. I'm now 28. I got my first bouquet of flowers from a guy! It was one of the best birthdays I've ever had.
April 9, 2009 -- I wake up with a mind-numbing pain in my right side. I end up calling my Mom at work and have her take me to the ER. Turns out I had a gallbladder attack and it needs to be removed. My Mom and I decide it's best to wait until the end of the semester to get it removed so that I can finish classes. Not the best idea. I'm sent home with a good supply of Vicodin.
April 10, 2009 - April 30, 2009 -- Matt and I are still together. He's still treating my like a queen and things are going very well. The gallbladder pain is so frequent that I'm taking Vicodin on a daily basis. If there happens to not be any pain, it's just downright uncomfortable. It's becoming apparent that I should've just gotten the surgery right away. As it is now, my grades and work performance are affected.
May 1, 2009 -- I move out of my apartment and in with my Mom. I'm having surgery May 18, which means I can't get a new job and I can't go to school. No job and no school = No money.
May 18, 2009 -- Surgery is a success! It was complete with one hot male nurse and one removal of a gallbladder.
May 20, 2009 -- Throat is so swollen, I can't breathe. Back to the ER and two days later, back to the ER. Tonsillitis has come back.
June 5, 2009 -- After two weeks of recovery time, I'm finally feeling well enough to spend the weekend in Cheyenne with Matt. We really enjoy cooking together and watching Arrested Development and going window shopping. May not sound too exciting, but we really like it and we like being together. He keeps telling me he has "strong feelings" for me and then one night after joking around about Asian hookers saying, "I do you long time." (Inside joke) he says to me, "I love you long time." Being taken by surprise, I don't really know what to say, so when I say, "What?" he stutters, stammers and changes the subject. Hmmm...
June 8, 2009 -- Start my job search. Yeah, they say the job market is really tough, but it can't be that bad, can it? Turns out it can.
July 7, 2009 -- After sending out dozens of resumes and cover letters with no interview, I accept a job at Dillards. Ugh. Not my idea of a good time.
July 23, 2009 -- I. DO. NOT. LIKE. THIS. JOB. AT. ALL. I'm treated like an imbecile, the pay is terrible and the hours are ridiculous. I dread going to work every day and after two girls I work with walk out, it's becoming brutally apparent that I will not be able to go to school if I keep this job. Matt seems a little distant. I notice that his face doesn't light up when I walk in the room anymore and while he still treats my like a queen, it seems like more of a task for him than him just wanting to treat me well. I think he's going through a mid-life crisis. It seems like he doesn't know if he wants to be 20 or 40.
August 7, 2009 -- And I'm done with Dillards. Maybe not the best decision I've ever made, but what's done is done and now I can focus on school this fall and visiting my Grandpa before school starts. He's not doing so hot these days.
August 10-13, 2009 -- In Nebraska with my Grandpa. I love being at home with him, but I also love knowing that I have a life in Cheyenne that I'm excited to get back to. He and I go to the doctor and after a long day, feel like he can get a hold on his diabetes and blood pressure problems.
August 18, 2009 -- I get pulled over for speeding in Cheyenne. Ugh, just my luck. As it turns out, when I was on my way home from Nebraska in January, I got a speeding ticket in Kimball, paid it and forgot about it. Well, somehow Nebraska screwed up their paperwork and never recorded my payment. So when I got pulled over in Cheyenne, the cop said my driver's license had been suspended. Double ugh. After about 20 phone calls, I finally got my license back. Actually, the cop hand delivered it.
August 19-23, 2009 -- I stop at Matt's on my way to Laramie. He breaks up with me saying, "This isn't working anymore." He breaks my poor little heart. He says he can't give me what I want. He doesn't know if he wants to get married and have kids. I control my emotions as he talks. It all seems so surreal. As I walk out of his apartment, I look back at him and start crying. I thought he was "The One". As I cry, he comes over to me and holds me, rubbing my back and shoulders and keeps telling me that he's sorry. I finally leave. As I walk away, I look back. He has one hand to his cheek, wiping something away. Was it a tear? Was it just an itch? I'll never know.
August 25, 2009 -- School starts. I LOVE my classes! It feels really good to be doing something that is helping me to be a better individual. Not to mention it's nice to have something healthy to focus on.
September 6, 2009 -- Happy Labor Day! I'm in Nebraska enjoying time with my Mom and Grandpa. We're still worried about him, but his vitals seem to be better. I'm looking forward to days of happiness and contentedness. I hope they come soon.